Its 12’o clock on a cloudy Sunday afternoon and life seems slow, the tempo of the day akin to that of a mellow Sinatra song. Having made a list of things to do, and having not checked any of them makes the blues seem synonymous with how you feel about yourself on a daily basis. Looking around, everyone seems to be getting their life on track. Getting things done, making their dreams come true, while you sit on the floor can’t even pin point a direction that would seem fit to travel on. Every new year, there’s hope that things would be better, that this year life will finally fall into place. Little does one realize, that life is already in place, waiting for us to steer it along the winds of our aspirations, thoughts, and desires. But instead of steering it, I’ve been sitting on deck, slowly wading through the waters, with trust that the winds will do all the work. That’s why it’s always been new year, same old me, for the longest time. Engulfed in thoughts about how everyone is living their life, trying to achieve similar feats, trying to walk the path that society says is best, hearing the heart but not listening to it has resulted in me being so far behind that it feels almost impossible to catch up. But what are you trying to catch up to? When unaware of what rhythm suits you best. It’s like trying to be a hip-hop artist when this entire time Jazz has been the calling. Out of tune, but still playing. And that’s the thing. We can be out of tune and still play, until one day we sit in silence and hear the notes and realize that a little bit of tuning will make the strings sound the way we want them to. Or perhaps, like any object we see, some of us repair the old and make it work just fine, some of us discard it completely and buy a new one. So, while, for some people the choice would be to completely clean the slate and start fresh, for some it would be to mend that which we can and continue knowing the problems and accepting there’s ways to get past them. Guess most of us, use both at different times, but whichever way, we must know there’s always that slight room for a difference. That’s the thing you kept forgetting, that no matter how hopeless change might seem, if only you tried to get past the hopelessness, you would. Takes effort, takes courage, takes time, takes energy, but most of all takes heart, mind and soul. Can’t look around and feel envious of those who have things going well, because the only difference between those people and you, is that they’re actually taking steps. Some big, some small, but they try never the less. So instead of feeling sorry for yourself, accept your reality, use it to change what you can, and let go of what you can’t. Feel comfort in knowing that if you’ve made it so far, you can and will go further. Your strengths can outshine your flaws but only if you acknowledge those imperfections in the first place. "Only if one can see the darkness, will there be appreciation for the light", is what is said, and perhaps it’s one of the truer things that’s been spoken out there. Not for anyone, not to fit in, not striving to be perfect, I want to still be me, just a fresher, better version. The ball has always been in your court, now all that’s left for you to do is take the first shot. With love, From a you that’s been waiting to be better Written by: Rishya Dutt
January 2019
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Vishwanath Tiwari
25/1/2019 05:20:29 pm
Good read.....Happ Writing
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Vani
25/1/2019 11:53:27 pm
Very well written... keep the good work going
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Abhinav
24/12/2020 11:19:30 pm
Very well written Blog👍👍
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